Yesterday I came up with the genius idea to start a blog. It has taken me a full day of contemplating a name for it and I realize once again how my indecisiveness plagues the heck outta me. I think I am writing this blog to help me process life...but can life really be fully processed?
Two months ago I returned to America from doing missions work for a year and a half to help others. Ironically, now I feel as though I am the one needing help. Insanity...sure. I am one of the millions that are jobless and the monotony of pointless/moneyless days are driving me a tad craycray. But when have I ever found purpose in a job. I never have had a job I really enjoyed. I know life's problems grow smaller when you take your eyes off of yourself and put it on others. I know my purpose is in God and not what I do. I know my value is that I am His, and not my paycheck (or lack there of in this situation). I know I need to be a voice although sometimes (and maybe most of the time) my insecurity silences me.
Ahhhhhh! Let it only break through to my heart!!!
I realized today that it is the last day of August. Time flies by for sure. But I also realized that tomorrow is the first day of September. Lol, yea I know, you're probably like duh genius! But really guys! Man, God knew we needed new beginnings. What if you knew something big would happen tomorrow...how would you live today? What if you got your clean slate, your fresh start, your new breath of air? Would you live life differently? Would you wake up with a new perspective? Would you grab the bull by the horns and give it every ounce of life you got in you?
I haven't felt real positive or strong or brave lately. But you know what! I am stronger now. Today I am bolder. And tomorrow I'll be unstoppable. Optimism... Eh, I'd go for realist any day. But let me get a little cray cray and put on a little positivity and see if it kills me or not haha! Maybe I'll get a job offer tomorrow. Maybe I'll have the most amazing reencounter with an old friend. Maybe I'll change someones life. Maybe I might just be a little surprised when I am open to something new.
I say...Bring It On, Baby!
