You Big Jerk!

So yesterday I went to bed feeling a little bit heavy. Not “heavy” as in I downed a quart of ice cream and am toting around a food baby, but more like HEAVY. I hate the helpless feeling of seeing people you love go through a hard time, look worn out, lose that spark of life in them, or whatevs. I’m referring to several people in my life IF you are the one out there that reads this and thinks I’m pointing ya out =). 

I’m the kind of person that just wants to pick up and carry other people’s burdens for them so they won’t have to struggle through it. I know this is what Jesus is there for, but I tend to want to take his job sometimes although I far from meet those job requirements. So, I just felt like urrrgh!

7am roles around and my mom barges in my room to wake me up to drive her to work (sharing a car with the parents is fun!). Okay, here is a little embarrassing family tradition that we used to do when being dropped off at school. We read from a prayer box and then had a daily prayer time together….kinda that thing that you feel singles you out as the “weird Christian family” that in High school you would die if your friends knew! And it’s still in my car although I graduated from these school days 8 years ago, ugh that number keeps getting bigger! 

So, I read the morning verse that said, “The LORD will bless his people with peace.” Ps.29:11.  And my mom starts talking to me how she needs God to infiltrate peace into her classroom of kids. And then all of a sudden this jerk face van cuts us off and wouldn’t let us merge as our lane was abruptly ending. Haha SOOO the mother lays on the horn like there isn’t a tomorrow and screams “Get off the road you big JERK!”. Okay, for all ya’ll judging out there, we know that you’re probably even more of a fanatic road rager than that so quit your pointing fingers. And I love my mom! She’s a bit cray cray, and my boyfriend never fails to let me know how I share this in common with her!

Here’s my point though! So then all after that fiasco we just started laughing like so hard for the next 5 minutes because of how ironically NOT peaceful this moment was. And then the light bulb switched on. Ahhhh…laughter. It’s good. In that moment, I realized life is good even though it can have its rough moments. That laughter is a gift and we should be spreading it. I have to believe that God is a funny guy. And He’s telling us, “lighten up kids, take a breath, lets laugh for a bit, and by the way, I got some peace over here to bless you with in the meantime.” 

So, I just want to challenge you today to lighten up, laugh with a friend, breathe. Find the goodness in life and go have some fun with it!

Aaand maybe try not to road rage in the midst of it =)

As my friend Caitlin Parker always says with a huge smile on her face….Thanks God!!! LOVE IT!

Bring It On Baby!

Yesterday I came up with the genius idea to start a blog. It has taken me a full day of contemplating a name for it and I realize once again how my indecisiveness plagues the heck outta me. I think I am writing this blog to help me process life...but can life really be fully processed?

Two months ago I returned to America from doing missions work for a year and a half to help others. Ironically, now I feel as though I am the one needing help. Insanity...sure. I am one of the millions that are jobless and the monotony of pointless/moneyless days are driving me a tad craycray. But when have I ever found purpose in a job. I never have had a job I really enjoyed. I know life's problems grow smaller when you take your eyes off of yourself and put it on others. I know my purpose is in God and not what I do. I know my value is that I am His, and not my paycheck (or lack there of in this situation). I know I need to be a voice although sometimes (and maybe most of the time) my insecurity silences me.

Ahhhhhh! Let it only break through to my heart!!! 

I realized today that it is the last day of August. Time flies by for sure. But I also realized that tomorrow is the first day of September. Lol, yea I know, you're probably like duh genius! But really guys! Man, God knew we needed new beginnings. What if you knew something big would happen tomorrow...how would you live today? What if you got your clean slate, your fresh start, your new breath of air? Would you live life differently? Would you wake up with a new perspective? Would you grab the bull by the horns and give it every ounce of life you got in you?

I haven't felt real positive or strong or brave lately. But you know what! I am stronger now. Today I am bolder. And tomorrow I'll be unstoppable. Optimism... Eh, I'd go for realist any day. But let me get a little cray cray and put on a little positivity and see if it kills me or not haha! Maybe I'll get a job offer tomorrow. Maybe I'll have the most amazing reencounter with an old friend. Maybe I'll change someones life. Maybe I might just be a little surprised when I am open to something new.

I say...Bring It On, Baby!